Depression always... | brokenalways's Blog

  Go away. Stay away. For one ONE fucking day.

 Depression sucks. Being depressed fucking sucks.
  I hate evvvvveeeeeeeeryyything.

 I hate being me. i hate being so depressed and miserable and sad and angry and weird and negative.
 I actually hate near-enough every god-damm thing about me.

 URGH.
 Such a shit mood tonight. NO idea why. I seriously think too much... Just winding myself up & up...

'you know that i could use somebody, someone like you....'
  Listening to Kings of Leon. Shuffle on ipod.
 It's true though. I could use somebody. Anybody. Save me.
but thinking about it- i don't really know if it'd work. be 'worth' it. cause i've kinda given up on everything now. i don't think there's anything worth living for or a possibility i can be saved. or anything like that really... if anything i'd screw the other person up. Cause i'm no good for nothing or noone.
 It's like the magic curse- everything you touch turns to shit. poor useless and a fucking ridiculous waste of space.


 YOU know. I did say i was feeling extra depressive and negative tonight- didn't i!?


 Yeah. Why this utter shit mood?
 I mean- always a shit depressed mood for me, but, i just can't stand anything tonight. Well the whole of today i have been a moody touchy bitch. every- single- thing- just driving me crazy...... [you seriously have problems my friend....]


  Bored. BOred. BORED.!

'Leave me alone, i'm lonely' Listening to now by Pink. Yeah- like this song will help my mood. Paha.

  Let me see what half cheerful song but not totally irritating song (in the mood i am in) i can find....
Right. this will do i suppose. 'one more night'- marroon 5.... maybe.... yeah, i suppose it'll doo.....

 Such A Fucked mood.

 Well- half 1 am. Gonna wack on my pillow soon. Not that tired but whatever. Sleep- not thinking. GOOD!!!!