days on... | brokenalways's Blog

  totally gonna be the like the biggest kid ever and go play on internet games like those ones from years ago like that helicopter one, and pacman. don't ask me why i love pacman & it's like centuries old....

 SO> fucking bored, feeling okay today though, days going by and getting totally confused by what day it is.
 Saturday.
 Fucking boring- nothing at all to do Saturday. god why am i such a bitch to push people away & then spend all my time alone and bored like utterly. Yeahhhhh. i probably could say sorry and then go hang out with them. but- unless it was all MY fault- i won't apologize- cause that's like admitting you did wrong, and they didn't, and that isn't the fucking case.

 I wanna get drunk... might be a loser and start drinking on my own while watching a movie later.... or see if i can pinch any of my brothers' cider stuff- but the nice flavoured stuff, obviously.

 YOU know what other alcohol i've found out that i like- rum- how weird is that!?
  When i went out the other week i kept to my usual vodka & coke, and my friend was testing drinks and kept ordering different rum cocktails and kept hating them and i was the only one who was like 'mmmm'- quiet nice in the cocktails.! Needless to say i was fucking hammered at the end of the night- having double of whatever everyone else was having by having my drink and then my friends cause she didn't like it... yeah...

 SO. fucking bored. feel pretty weird today. i mean- feeling shit as usual but not overly depressed. kinda in a happy mood cause of talking to people who are making me laugh- thank god i can laugh easily despite my depression!!!