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 I was super happy before. Then after tons of texts from my friend, who might not even be my friend anymore, kinda put dampened the mood so now its fallen down and i feel pure shit.

 The guy asked me out yesterday. I said sure. I mean it doesn't mean anything really> he makes me smile though.

 WELL yesterday was a sucker. Was good till i drank my vodka extremely quick and then started on at the guy who lied saying we hadn't done anything. My friend just wants to forget about it but my gobby self wouldn't let that happen when i was pissed. I couldn't stand him. i tried to talk to him outside but he looked so angry and his friend stopped him from pushing me out the way too. I called him alot of names. Made a lot of jibes at him. I hate him.
 Then my friend told me to fuck off and now shes been texting me about what  a bitch i am. I am. But he deserved it so whatever.......
 Then i ended up going back to the new boyfriends' house and passed out i was that drunk. Woke up in the morning in bed and he said he carried my unconscious body to bed and went to sleep. i am such a mess.
 
 Just gonna try and not let it get me down. Off to the boyfriend's house tomorrow & friday. He'll cheer me up...