oh mmm... | brokenalways's Blog

  So. I'm kinda confused. I'm alot happier in person now. I smile and laugh so much more. He makes me happy. I just dunno- if i saw him i wouldn't think 'oh my gosh mmmm' cause he is not my type and i think why do i like him so much? but he makes me laugh and smile and feel amazing- i do like him.
 I know he likes me way more than i like him. But i'm gonna keep trying cause he is such a nice lovely hilarious cute guy.  & it might work out really well!

 SO. With my friend - i fucked up again- said too many things i shouldn't had. maybe this time we won't make up again. I can never seem to know when enough is enough and to keep my mouth shut. Damm fuck.
 
 Off to my guys flat tomorrow. First going to the pub and meet some of his friends- oh..... And then back to his for movies, drinkies, and bed and stuff that comes along with bed.
 Then friday night im going pub while he works a little but my not-friend will be there working too so maybe a little awkward-ness plus she told him she wasn't speaking to me and would refuse to serve me. Fuck she really has fallen out with me. Oh well.....
 Then back to his again and he cancelled his football match so we can have a day today in bed and movies and stuff. So looking forward to getting tomorrow 3-6 over with so i can come back home, have a shower, maybe sleep, get ready and off to meet him and some of his friends.


 It's weird how much he likes me though. he really likes me.
 He told me how he keeps telling his friends about how much i make him smile and how much he has fallen for me so quickly. And i like that. I don't get why he likes me. I shouldn't question it.

 I just am no good in relationships. So i don't know how this is gonna work out. And i really don't wanna hurt him cause he is such a nice guy......
 

 WHY i can't just be normal.