falling... | brokenalways's Blog

 He's 'smitten' and i'm falling for him.

   This is moving way too fast.
 It's fucking strange.

 I mean- he has seen the fucking worst of me- the drunk side, the slag side, the depressed side, the pissed off side, the happy, hipper, giddy, miserable, normal, bored, tired, just woken-up in the morning side. He's seen all of me so fucking quickly.
 Our conversations are like we have known each other for years. It feels like we have known each over ages, it has been left than a fucking month ! :O

 It's well strange, how it's getting serious already. I usually just don't get so like this so quick. It usually takes its time and i'm distant and i don't like getting close to people. But - with him, we have so much in common and we connect. It's fucking strange but i like him so much already.

 I shouldn't complain.
 Like he keeps staring at me and says how beautiful i am- i say 'why do you even like me?' and he says that i don't need to understand it, cause he does... So i shouldn't question it.
 Yepp- Don't complain, don't question it. Simples.

I'm kinda trying to stop worrying about the work shit. Give it a few weeks, maybe some courage will appear from somewhere, out of fucking nowhere, god knows, god help me. I just need bloody help to get this going and i'm just gonna enjoy my time for the next week or so, forget about it, let it be, it'll come eventually and you'll be fine.

 Okay. Watching one born every minute on laptop. Eaten so much today as in snacking. Sucks. Gonna be a whale's weight soon., Crrikey !